Okay after a good yet short nights sleep I am up and ready. Only an hour to go and the work day commute begins. Time to get the kids up and running and making sure everyone is ready to wake up this morning.
I know I didn't want to get up and out of bed this morning. After a very long soak in the hot tub and watching the raccoons pillage through the yard for worms it was quite interesting. I was watching this animal not 10 feet from where I was sitting in the hot tub that was bigger than my last cat. Dog gone those animals get big!
I know we have wildlife here where we are from mice (not a preference of mine) to racoons, opossum, and an occassional coyote. I am sure when they start building houses in the large brush area across the street that we will have more critters come through but we will see what happens.
Okay on to start my day. Hopefully it won't be as long as some of the ones I have had recently. Wish me luck on no more overtime!!
Have a great day!!
Monday, October 23, 2006
Sunday, October 22, 2006
Long Time Coming....
It's been a while since I last posted. My birthday to be exact. 3 weeks ago today. So many long hours at work. I had to give my manager an ultimatum. Hire someone or lose your final person. It takes 4 people to do what I do at work. I have been putting in 60+ hours at work per week for the last 8-12 weeks. I took time for Mr. Frogman and was at every Cross Country Meet. I was there for most Boy Scout Meetings. I became the committee chair for MonkeyDude Jr's cub scout pack, recruitment chair for Mr. Frogmans Troop. (Yes, there is a difference. Boy Scouts are Troops, Cub Scouts are packs). It is amazing the terminology difference. It's definitely an education.
I received recently top honor awards at work. Yes the overtime checks are fantastic and can be used at this time. But when you think about it, what does it really mean? Within the company you have a piece of paper that says you achieved more than the next person. When you leave the company what does it mean? Absolutely Nothing! The popular saying you hear is, "You never see a gravestone that says, I should have spent more time at work." As much as I can use the money as I am sure anyone can I don't need it. I don't need the loss of sleep. I don't need the stress. I don't need to lose any more time with Mr. Frogman.
When I approached my manager he looked at me and made a few comments and then went back to work. 3 days later a job offer was made to a part time assistant for my position. The down side is that she needed to give 2 weeks notice. I had 2 weeks left to work. She starts tomorrow!! After this week there is no more overtime. No more long hours. Cross Country for Mr. Frogman is now over so it is one more day I don't have to try to rearrange schedules and work split shifts. Although, no matter what happens I would bend over backwards to make sure he got to where he needed to go and do the things we have committed to.
The old 8-5 shift is something I am greatly looking forward to. Wish me luck in actually getting to it.
I received recently top honor awards at work. Yes the overtime checks are fantastic and can be used at this time. But when you think about it, what does it really mean? Within the company you have a piece of paper that says you achieved more than the next person. When you leave the company what does it mean? Absolutely Nothing! The popular saying you hear is, "You never see a gravestone that says, I should have spent more time at work." As much as I can use the money as I am sure anyone can I don't need it. I don't need the loss of sleep. I don't need the stress. I don't need to lose any more time with Mr. Frogman.
When I approached my manager he looked at me and made a few comments and then went back to work. 3 days later a job offer was made to a part time assistant for my position. The down side is that she needed to give 2 weeks notice. I had 2 weeks left to work. She starts tomorrow!! After this week there is no more overtime. No more long hours. Cross Country for Mr. Frogman is now over so it is one more day I don't have to try to rearrange schedules and work split shifts. Although, no matter what happens I would bend over backwards to make sure he got to where he needed to go and do the things we have committed to.
The old 8-5 shift is something I am greatly looking forward to. Wish me luck in actually getting to it.
"Hey! How you doin'?"
That was last nights party theme amongst my small group. I went out to a party my exhusband was throwing. It was fantastic. Wolfman, Intimidator and Wolfmans cousin, Alaska man showed up. It was a halloween dress up party for adults only. Wolfman wnet as a cowboy, Intimidator showed up as a biker (pretty unique since he had ridden his motorcycle over) and Alaska man showed up as The Sheriff. Hubba hubba he looked good in his all black outfit and Sheriffs star. MMMMMmmmmmm... or should it be Yummmm....Not only that but Wolfman looked good as well. Intimidator would have looked better in his pirate costume. Although, he couldnt take it on the motorcycle.
I have to admit. I have missed my friend Intimidator. Since he started dating Grandma Girlfriend it hasn't been the same. In my opinion she is jealous and insecure when it comes to me. I am an independent individual with a wonderful son. I also have alot of things going for me as far as personality, positive attitude and being outgoing, opinionated, ornery, and humble. Okay now I am sounding egotistical but if you knew Intimidator you would understand. I had the guts to tell him a year ago how I felt about him and I was shot down. He chose Grandma Girlfriend which he is now paying the price for. What he doesn't realize is that I truly care. I care about what happens to them and how they feel Intimidator and his son. This isn't going to come out right. Maybe I care too much. Maybe my feelings haven't changed. Who knows?
I know how I feel, what I want and where I want to head....But it makes it hard as a good friend to watch my friend "claim" to be miserable but stay in the situation. I don't understand how someone can expose their child to what he keeps telling me about.
I stand firm on my belief that she is insecure and jealous of me. If she wasn't she would not have a problem with us being friends. Intimidator and I have been friends for the past 5 years. This past year has been tough. My one confidante I have not been able to confide in. Until last night. We both had had a few drinks, so did Wolfman and Alaska Man. It was like old times with Intimidator. I had not seen him really smile until last night. Not with the drinking but being free. Being able to be himself.
It hurt today when I took Intimidator Jr. to his dad. Intimidator was a completely different person. The person I hug when we see each other and hug when we leave was cool and aloof. Grandma Girlfriend was in the car. He wouldn't even give me a hug near her. It absolutely amazes me how...someone...who doesn't really care what others think really cares about what others think and will blow off a 5 year friend for a girlfriend he claims he is miserable with. I don't comprehend that. That's completely out of line for me since I understand most everything. Some people tend to underestimate me and my abilities. I don't believe I am misunderstanding this. Something to me doesn't quite add up.
Don't let my basic blog fool you. This is just basic "thoughts on paper" so to speak. It's my way of keeping what is most important to me in perspective which some people will see is friends and family.
The business I run with my ex husband, my job working as an administrative assistant and trying to publish a book with all the incompetent people I meet will be interesting to write about. I will eventually get around to it. I don't know how to explain how I am feeling. Hurt? Probably. It hurts that I feel I have lost my friend. Even though I haven't. He just can't be the person I know when she is around. Maybe I am only feeling this way because of the after effects of having a few drinks. The let down. But it can't be. I had a great day. Only when I took Intimidator Jr to his dad did all of these feelings hit me all at once.
Mr. Frogman and I drove around for a bit after that and had some good one on one time. He shared with me that he was glad to have his friend back that he had not seen for some time. It was good to be able to spend more time with him. Withall that happened this weekend he realized how much he cares. His exact words, "I like my friends so much! Mom we have so much fun when we are all together. You make us laugh when we play games. When can he come back over?" Of course we talked about all the funny stuff and reminisced about our weekend (mom reminiscing more than Mr.Frogman knew) and we had laughs of our own. What a way to end the weekend.
I am going to head out and sit and relax in the hot tub and ponder why this bothers me. I am sure I know, I am not yet ready to admit to it though.
I have to admit. I have missed my friend Intimidator. Since he started dating Grandma Girlfriend it hasn't been the same. In my opinion she is jealous and insecure when it comes to me. I am an independent individual with a wonderful son. I also have alot of things going for me as far as personality, positive attitude and being outgoing, opinionated, ornery, and humble. Okay now I am sounding egotistical but if you knew Intimidator you would understand. I had the guts to tell him a year ago how I felt about him and I was shot down. He chose Grandma Girlfriend which he is now paying the price for. What he doesn't realize is that I truly care. I care about what happens to them and how they feel Intimidator and his son. This isn't going to come out right. Maybe I care too much. Maybe my feelings haven't changed. Who knows?
I know how I feel, what I want and where I want to head....But it makes it hard as a good friend to watch my friend "claim" to be miserable but stay in the situation. I don't understand how someone can expose their child to what he keeps telling me about.
I stand firm on my belief that she is insecure and jealous of me. If she wasn't she would not have a problem with us being friends. Intimidator and I have been friends for the past 5 years. This past year has been tough. My one confidante I have not been able to confide in. Until last night. We both had had a few drinks, so did Wolfman and Alaska Man. It was like old times with Intimidator. I had not seen him really smile until last night. Not with the drinking but being free. Being able to be himself.
It hurt today when I took Intimidator Jr. to his dad. Intimidator was a completely different person. The person I hug when we see each other and hug when we leave was cool and aloof. Grandma Girlfriend was in the car. He wouldn't even give me a hug near her. It absolutely amazes me how...someone...who doesn't really care what others think really cares about what others think and will blow off a 5 year friend for a girlfriend he claims he is miserable with. I don't comprehend that. That's completely out of line for me since I understand most everything. Some people tend to underestimate me and my abilities. I don't believe I am misunderstanding this. Something to me doesn't quite add up.
Don't let my basic blog fool you. This is just basic "thoughts on paper" so to speak. It's my way of keeping what is most important to me in perspective which some people will see is friends and family.
The business I run with my ex husband, my job working as an administrative assistant and trying to publish a book with all the incompetent people I meet will be interesting to write about. I will eventually get around to it. I don't know how to explain how I am feeling. Hurt? Probably. It hurts that I feel I have lost my friend. Even though I haven't. He just can't be the person I know when she is around. Maybe I am only feeling this way because of the after effects of having a few drinks. The let down. But it can't be. I had a great day. Only when I took Intimidator Jr to his dad did all of these feelings hit me all at once.
Mr. Frogman and I drove around for a bit after that and had some good one on one time. He shared with me that he was glad to have his friend back that he had not seen for some time. It was good to be able to spend more time with him. Withall that happened this weekend he realized how much he cares. His exact words, "I like my friends so much! Mom we have so much fun when we are all together. You make us laugh when we play games. When can he come back over?" Of course we talked about all the funny stuff and reminisced about our weekend (mom reminiscing more than Mr.Frogman knew) and we had laughs of our own. What a way to end the weekend.
I am going to head out and sit and relax in the hot tub and ponder why this bothers me. I am sure I know, I am not yet ready to admit to it though.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Happy Birthday To Me!!
Yes, yes it is my birthday. I am turning 29 for the hmmmm... 7th time now? Good ol' 36! Mr. Frogman, Wolfman, Monkey Dude Jr., Trucker, Sightseer, Boomer, Little Red, Little Sister, and Alaska Man all had a really neat birthday dinner last night, the night before my birthday...
It was great. Then a small group of us headed out dancing for the night. What a great time it was! I havent been out that late in a while and it felt good to be out for a night.
So far this morning I have been kicked out of the kitchen and not allowed to help clean up from last night and told I have to sit. I suppose I can do that for a while anyway. After that I have to get up and do something. I can't sit around all day long and do nothing although that is what I would really like to do.
****SIGH****
It's all good!
It was great. Then a small group of us headed out dancing for the night. What a great time it was! I havent been out that late in a while and it felt good to be out for a night.
So far this morning I have been kicked out of the kitchen and not allowed to help clean up from last night and told I have to sit. I suppose I can do that for a while anyway. After that I have to get up and do something. I can't sit around all day long and do nothing although that is what I would really like to do.
****SIGH****
It's all good!
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